I Wonder......

I wonder how often a thought

Crosses your mind n u stop

Thinking a while and reflect

Is there’s someone you left?

I wonder how many times you see

A tear in the eye might be

As painful to hide than to shed

Did you realize if someone bled?

I wonder how many ways u tried

To find out where I hide

To help me out n see

How mornings would brighten me?

I wonder how many things you knew

That if it weren’t for you

I’d still be in a wreck

But I wonder if you'll be back.

I wonder how many times you play

With hearts like mine time and again

How innocently you pull out the trigger

And kill them without prolonged pain?

I wonder how many times you realized

The mortals loose their might

And at your end by the hands of fate

Your regrets and confessions would be too late.

Unexplored

Shores of unknown lands

I have begun to explore...

I see the road I am to take,

And I see an open door.

No destination to reach,

No lessons to learn or teach,

Just to revive a few forlorn hearts,

And to leave my memories in each.

Long paths, narrow, winding,

And I am finding

By myself, my way

For my map, I threw away.

My guide resides within me,

And takes me where I should be!

I don't have a destination,

But do you want to come with me?

We shall walk together,

But nothing shall bind us.

We, free spirits, will walk beyond all horizons,

And leave the world behind us!

To walk across the most vast lands,

To sail across seven seas,

And maybe, to fly!

Do you want to come with me?

And It Feels Good :)

It's raining.

I can see

A skyful of clouds

And nothing beyond.

But I can see

Glimpses of the world

Where we belong

Together.

I can feel

A cool gush of air.

And I can feel you,

As if you were here.

You and I,

Together.

And it feels good... 

Found a Poet

I have found a poet in me
Whom I would never set free
I dint know that I could do this
Is this a God's bliss

I am so delighted and excited
As when I write great ideas are lighted.

The time since my first poem is written
It feels that this art is a fruit never before bitten

I am in a state of joy
Like a child plays with a toy

When my feelings are penned down
I feel that I am crowned

Writing, cutting and writing back
Lets the cat out of the sack

An introvert girl like me
Never used to let her feeling free
But as the joy of writing was discovered
Various feeling deep inside were uncovered.

Will touch the Sky

I will touch the sky
Will go through hardships and won’t cry
Will feel the heat and bear
Will do something in my life to this I swear.

At present I am lost
But I am sure that I will soon find my way
Will do something great
Which would pay for being late

I would burn the mid nights oil
And would make up whatever has been spoiled
I was too innocent to realize
That I wasn’t acting wise

I harmed my own destiny
Didn’t know what was best for me
But now I have got up again
To face the strain

I am ready to undergo pain
To have some gain
All this is driving me insane
As I will only be relieved the day
I touch the sky.

Craving for Someone's time

Craving.. for someone's time...
Seeking sometime of yours which was all mine sometime...
Need to tell you things...have loads and loads to share..
Want to show you something...
Some gifts I got for each of your birthday..
Some letters I wrote every day...
A plate of Pasta I want to cook for you..
Feel the warmth of your hands...
Shed that long pending tear on your shoulder..
Seeking sometime of yours which could all have been mine....

Just for YOU

When I'm with you,
Eternity is a step away,
My love continues to grow,
With each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
How much I love you...
You’ll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
With each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
Whenever we part,
Know I hold you dearly,
Deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always”

Miss you

Whenever I am alone
A thought is always in my mind
True friend like you I can never find

A helping hand that you always lend
Like an angel in disguise
For me God had sent

Yes I always took you for granted,
But you never complained.
And never spoke for that you always wanted.

How precious to me you were
I never realized.
I always criticized.

I did see in your eyes the love for me
But I never thought the otherwise.
You were always only a friend to me

This is where the things went wrong,
And thus there came an end,
To this beautiful friendship song.

But I’ve always remembered you all these days
All those memories I’ve still cherished
I wish our friendship had never perished.

Since then I am in search to have a
Friend like you,
Later realized friends like you are rare and true
Miss you……

First Love lasts forever

When I saw u for the first time
Feelings were nothing but sublime
Felt like some one sowed a seed
Wanted to know what did it need

First time u gave that look
It just opened my love book
Guessed it was just a crush
But thoughts just seemed to rush

And the times u took my name
It didn’t sound all the same
While u first held my hand
My pulse sunk like quick sand

This special feeling was overwhelming
Those days of our lives were reigning
You used to give me that smile
Made me a prisoner of your jail

You laughed at my jokes
I blushed at your pokes
The thoughts we shared
And the colors we reared
Said that we would be there
Till the end of world stared.

But then Time made us depart
All this ended before the start
The last time I saw u I knew
I will never again see u

I have never seen u since
Became a fish sans fins
Struggling to swim over you
But drowned in a ocean of rue

Your memories comes along as waves
And Leaves me in lonely caves
Now I see darkness even in sun
The moon also appears to burn

But u have entered my veins so deep
All that I see is you in my sleep
U have made my dreamland your home
I open my eyes to find myself alone

I don’t want to get over you
But you are the morning dew
Another night rolls me all over
And leaves me again so sober

I have made you grow inside
So that I can feel you are beside
Although now you are changed and gone
I will love you until I am just a bone

You are my first love and my last
And it will last even after the world is lost...

Let me...

Let me cry because there is
endless amount of pain left inside me.
Pain that is lingering within me for ages.

When I close my eyes and look back,
I see myself crying.
And begging for a shoulder to cry on.
I’m not asking you to comfort me.
Just see me crying
and hold my tears in your hands a
and you’ll know what
I have gone through.

When I open my eyes
I’m still lying there and crying.
Crying for destiny,
Crying for you,
Crying for every moment I spent with you.

I’m crying because I don’t want to die
with a heavy heart.
So, I’m shedding my tears in front of you.
So that you’ll know
that these tears are for none but you.

An ode for Friend

Friends Forever" You promised,
"Together till the end",
We did everything with each other,
You were my BEST Friend.

When I was sad, You were by my side,
When I was scared, You felt my fear,
"You" were my best support,
If I needed You, You were there.

You were the greatest friend,
You always knew what to say,
You made everything seem better,
As long as we had each other....
Everything was okay.

But somewhere along the line,
We slowly came apart,
I was here, You were there,
It tore a hole in my heart.

Things were changing,
Our cheerful music reversed its tune,
It was like having salt without pepper,
A sun without its moon.

Suddenly You were miles apart,
Two different people with nothing the same,
It was as if we hadn’t been friends,
Although we knew deep in our hearts....
Neither of us was to blame.

You had made many new friends,
And luckily so had I,
But that didn’t change the hurt,
The loss of our friendship made me cry.

As we grow, things must change,
But they don’t always have to and,
Even though it is different now,
You will always be MY FRIEND..

Something about U

I don’t know how to explain it,
If only you could truly see
How much I really care for you
How much you mean to me

I look forward to seeing you everyday,
The grin that belongs only to you,
When I see you I can’t help but smile,
There is just something about you

When you put your hands in mine,
My heart suddenly beats faster
I wish I could tell you right then and there
That my life could never be better

When you wrap your arms around me
For a simple, gentle hug,
I want to stay in that moment forever
And tell you how much you really are loved

When we gradually come close enough together,
Our lips touch, a kiss,
Nothing around us seems to matter,
Because there is nothing sweeter than this

No words could ever express how much you mean to me
I hope you have these feeling for me, too
I can’t figure out what it is
But there is definitely something very special about you

Then tell me

After my love and my life
After my care to share with you,
What else are you thinking of??

After my attention and affection,
After my company with u so long,
What else are you thinking of??

After my body and my soul,
And for u now playing this role,
Now being what you want me to be,
If you have faith you can see..

And what else are u thinking of??
I have nothing greater to give you more…

DID I EVER LET YOU KNOW

Did I ever let you know
What u mean to me
How hard it was
And how has it been to me

Did I ever let you know
It was my world in your arms
The silence blushed as I hugged you
And the night waded to trance

Did I ever let you know
How I felt when you kissed me
When you held me tight and pulled me close
The warmth of your love eased me

Did I ever let you know
That I saw you in every dream of mine
I felt u were the one for me
As you always made my world shine

Did I ever let you know
If you gave me your side
I could hold your hand
And spend the life

Did I ever let you know
How beautiful was that time
And how much I will miss it
Till the end of my life....

I Saw Him That Day!!!

I saw him that day
taking a burger in Mc'D
Dressed in blue, looking just the same
As he looked few tym before.

Felt like running away.
But then paused. Why should I ?
I’ve done no wrong, told no lie.
Its useless to run from the truth anymore.

But then, I caught his eye.
I thought he’d smile, but I was wrong.
I had become just a part of the throng,
A Nobody, a page torn out of his memory

He looked away, so did I
I didn’t know him, well...that’s what I showed.
While all around us music flowed..
Music touching us...binding him and me..

We are strangers now.
But once, we were something else.
Once, our lives were sunshine and tinkling bells..
Things have changed, won’t be the same again..

But still, I feel somehow..
Still.. I know, on starlit nights, he misses..
All those words, those moments,
Those memories still bring him pain..

It’s a soothing thought.
Or am I just consoling myself? Perhaps.
Its weird the way around my mind it wraps..
Be it so. I’ll hold on to it.. won’t let it go .

I lost him suddenly...Vainly sought
Amidst the crowds, the endless rows..
I looked all around standing on my toes,
Wanted to shout..” Come back…come back once more....”

Wecome to my life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you?

Do you ever wanna run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels alright

No you don't know what it's like to be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when u r down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

But no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like...

Welcome to my life

Do I ever cross your mind?

Do I ever cross your mind?

Do you ever think about me?

When you're alone up in the night?

Left with your thoughts and wishes,

Somewhere out of sight

Do you ever dream or picture

Of how our life could have been?

If we had strived to fight for a love

That we felt was truly real

Sometimes my heart goes numb,

I almost cannot feel

Do you ever look at old photos

The ones with smiling faces?

Or have you thrown those away,

Have others taken their places

Does your heart ever feel warmth?

For the love we used to share?

Or like the photos,

Have your feelings for me become something old

Sometimes I cannot feel,

My heart has turned cold

Do you refrain yourself

Whispering my name from your lips?

Have you forgotten

The feel of my skin on your fingertips?

Do memories sometimes tease you?

With our footprints on sand

Like a tattoo inscripted in your head,

Do you see me when asleep?

My heart has turned cold.

My love for you is no longer deep

Do you ever replay

Our old conversations at times in your head?

Alone when desires come to life,

And you wish that were dead

Do emotions ever swallow you?

Making you have regrets?

Or take you back in the past,

Where love made time stand still

My love for you is no longer deep;

We’ve lost what was real

Do you ever question?

If we would have made it through the rain

If we had forgiven our mistakes,

Would there have been so much pain

Do I ever cross your mind

Or have those memories finally been erased?

Have you moved on?

I guess I will never know

We have lost what was real,

So I learned to let you go

Six tears

Last night before i went to bed
Thoughts of you filled my head
I have not cried this way in many of years
Onto my pillow fell six silent tears

The first was for your smile that I miss
And your tender lips I long to kiss
The second was for your gentle face
And thoughts of your loving embrace

The third came as no suprise
As I thought of your beautiful eyes
The fourth came rolling down my face
Instead of my pillow, it should be you in it's place.

The fifth came for one reason alone
I felt my love for you wasn't fully shown
I really love and miss you my dear
And there just fell...the sixth silent tear

Never Again

I was always there with you,
whenever things were wrong,
times when you were down,
I helped you get your feet
back on the ground.


I gave you all the love I could,
and prayed that we never depart.
I thought you loved me the way I did,
and you would be there whenever I'll need.


But could never make out a plan you made,
a game that you played,
and just failed to read your face,
and looked like a fool when someone else took my place.


You were only mine,
this I felt always as the bottomline,
but things in life don't always go your way,
sometimes you get....most of the times
you have to give away.


Now lying in a pool of thoughts,
my heart in pain yells,
I Can live without you,
just Can't live with anyone else.

Think Again Please

This may not be a right thing to reveal,
But writing down all I feel,
And at this point of time,
Words that are coming out, rhyme.

Love you more than I should be,
Pains to know you don’t feel the same for me
Now I've come alone a long way,
But these feelings just don’t seem to fade away.

During the tough times on path of life,
When there was no way to take a turn,
A turn where I was looking for someone,
To help me out then you were the only one

I thought you’ll be with me forever,
Times I’ll need you whenever,
But now I realize I was badly mistaken, and
Would think thousand times if
Ever again in this game of love I step in

It’s tough to accept the reason,
The reason you gave when you declined.
Now even in crowd,
Lonely myself again I find.

Just want to say don’t deny
Imagine a story without you, featuring only I
Will be a huge flop,
Can say before it gets release,
That is why I say, THINK AGAIN PLEASE…..

Always and Forever....

You are a part of my life in so many ways
And you I will love for the rest of my days
Time can’t change the way I feel
For I love you now
And I always will.
It seems like forever since we’ve been apart
I wish we could go back
and make a fresh start
Then if you left
I’d miss you I know
But tell you I love you
and then let you go
But the past is over
I cant change it now
I want to be with you
but I just don’t know how
So I’ll think of you always and the way it use to be
Because you are so very special to me

My Dream Will Come True

i close my eyes,
and i see his face
i feel his touch
his warm embrace
i hear his voice,
he whispers so
says he'll never
let me go.
he smells so good,
it feels so right.
i beg him please,
to hold me tight.
he runs his fingers,
through my hair.
caresses my skin,
his touch so fair.
and then he presses,
his lips to mine
my body quivers,
with feelings so divine.
and i just as i feel,
i haven't a care.
i open my eyes,
to find he is not there.
was it all in my head?
does my dream man exist?
i feel a great sadness,
as i ask myself this.
then as i look up,
as if out of the blue.
i see your sweet smile,
and i reach out to you.
you gladly reach back,
with your arms wide open.
the moment stands still,
i love frozen in time.
you are the man,
of whom i had dreamed.
i've waited forever,
or so it has seemed.
to share these feelings,
so pure,so true
i want to shout it loud
I LOVE YOU!!!!

My Life And YOur Presence

When I look into your eyes
There are the perfect shades of blue,
In my heart I know
Our love will always be true,
In the game of love
My heart you won
So together we will go
Through life as one
If we have ever to part
It won’t long last
Because in your arms
Is where I belong
Tour tender touch
Always makes me go weak,
Especially when your lips
Touch my cheeks,
It’s a feeling I want to feel
Again and again
For with each touch
The more love for you I gain..

JOY :)

with your knees folded
when you sit below a beautiful tree
and a river nearby
and when there are pastures quiet
near a beautiful scene,
of which you are part of,
when you think almost nothing,
or a few things like old memories
of lost love,
when you gained more than you lost,
when you look at the sky's unending charm,
and the beauty this world offers,
when you imagine how it would be,
if i were a child,
innocent and forgiving and loving,
when you just sit and feel,
the winds singing in tune with your face,
and you laugh and cry with yourself,
and feel one with the world,
while think and don't think together,
when you think like that,
you think of nothing,
but JOY.....

Once Upon A Time!!!!

Once Upon A Time
I was falling in love
But now I am falling apart
Because the person whom I loved the most
Has twice broken my heart...

Once Upon A Time
I was the happiest person ever
But now I’ve forgotten how to smile
Because the person whom I loved the most
Has left me behind 1000 miles...

Once Upon A Time
I visited the 7th heaven
But now every place to me is hell
Because the person whom I loved the most
Never caught me when I fell...

Once Upon A Time
I had everything I ever wanted
But now I have nothing
Because the person whom I loved the most
Has given me days which were agonizing...

Once Upon A Time
I had respect for him in my heart
But now I have animosity
Because the person whom I loved the most
Had shown me enough of asperity...

Once Upon A Time
I wasn’t the kind who would protest
But now I m ready to illuminate
Because the person whom I loved the most
Has darkened up my fate...

Once Upon A Time
I used to be addictive of his presence
But now I won’t be abase
Because the person whom I loved the most
Has increased his pace...

Once Upon A Time
I used to smile even when he gave me pain
But now I won’t stand this again
Because the person whom I loved the most
Has driven me insane...

Once Upon A Time
He stabbed me and my soul died
But as forever my heart lived
As love for him....never died....

Never Say I Love U

Never say i love u
if you really dont care
never talk about feelings
if they arent really there

never hold my hand
if you are going to break my heart
never say you are going to
if you dont plan to start

never look into my eyes
if all you do is lie
never say hello
if you really mean good bye

if you really mean forever
then say you will try
never say forever
cause forever makes me cry